Bobbie (bobbie__thomas) wrote,

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I woke up this morning and the sun was shining through sheer curtains and I could hear the surf crashing on the shore from the open window. I turned my head and for the first time in a long time, he wasn't next to me. But I smiled anyway, I knew where he was.

There was a knock on the door and I turned my head, saying "come in" and my mom pushed open the door, followed by my sister. They forced me out of bed, made me sit in a chair with curlers in my hair and my sister made me let her put on my makeup.

Everything was perfect. Me. Him. Our family. We realized that's all we needed. We were doing this for us not for our friends. We flew everyone to the private island Ryan had rented, the same island we were at when I thought that maybe I had fallen in love with him. We picked today because it's been exactly one year since we decided that this was more than just a couple of dates, that this was something we should try for the rest of our lives.

We made it official around eleven this morning. The sand was pure white beneath our feet, the water that amazing blue green color that you don't expect to see anywhere but in the brochures for places that no one can afford to go. He looked...amazing. I always liked when he wore tuxes, and today was no exception. I have pretty simple tastes, and luckily my dress reflected that, spaghetti straps and a simple sheath, and neither of us wore shoes. We had traditional vows, saving the ones we wrote for each other for a time when we were alone.

This year has been the most incredible year of my life. Yes, there's things about it I'd rather forget, but through all those times, he's been right by my side and I've been by his. People have tried to come between us and tear us apart, and all they've succeeded in doing is pushing us closer together.

He might not have been my first love, but he's going to be my last.

There's days when I wake up and think that it's just about the most perfect day I could ask for. I know now that I was wrong. This was the most perfect day. I woke up on my last day as a single woman and just stopped. And I closed my eyes again and I just thanked God that He gave me this life. And I walked onto the sand with my father and I met Ryan's eyes, and he smiled at me and I got those familiar butterflies in my stomach. I held his hands and I said those words that I'll never say to another person as long as I live and I meant them with every fiber of my being. And I'm going to bed a married woman and sometimes, how lucky I am overwhelms me.

I'm in love. And nothing is going to change that.

[Date created: 2001-07-27 21:01:18

It doesn't seem like it, but I've been here for four years. And now it just feels like the perfect time to go. The past four years have been crazy, I've seen a lot of things, a lot of people come and go, and I've loved all the time I spent here.

The people who matter to me know how I feel about them, so I'll just say thank you.

To Ryan. Thank you so much for this past year. I would have left a long time ago if it weren't for you, and I'm glad I stuck around. You're a great person and you know where to find me.

To everyone else, thanks for making this game fun.]
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